Eddie Drake is sort of this loose cannon, funny, edgy guy, who has this really foolish, foolish mustache.
I think for Beecher specifically, Keller was with him when his wife died. Beecher had decided after he first got into prison that he had to shut off everybody. You can`t let anybody in and you have to become like them and you have to be threatening and all that.
I know what it`s like to be ignored, and I think that is the big problem about the prison system: These people are being thrown away. There is no sense of rehabilitation. In some places, they are trying to do things. But, in most cases, it`s a holding cell.
But we both came to the decision that the powerful thing is to go into your fear, walk in there with it, don`t walk away from it, and to try to be true to it.
I would say that playing this character has caused me to think about a lot of things. He`s always questioning himself and trying to get back to something he lost touch with and trying to find forgiveness. Everybody struggles with these things to some extent in their life.
I went through a divorce right as we were starting the show. My divorce became final right after we started shooting the first year, and during that time I was in such a low place.
(About which is the better kisser: his real-life wife, or co-star Christopher Meloni) "Definitely Meloni. When I kiss my wife, I don`t see any cash."
Before I did Weird Science I definitely wasn`t thinking, `Oh my God, I`d LOVE to do a series for four years where I got to be a loud, obnoxious, militaristic a**h*le!` And certainly when I finished that, I didn`t think, `Oh man, if I could play a lawyer-turned-convict who gets anally r*ped and learns to love it...`
I knew how intense it was going to be. But as we started to make it - the first year - even crew people would say weird things to me.
What it made me realize was that a show like this makes people look inside themselves. Because this crew guy isn`t sitting there wishing the character would fight back. He`s hoping that he would fight back.
It`s definitely intense to walk away from at the end of each season.
As I walk around, I have met 70-year-old women who live on the Upper West Side who love the show. And I met a couple in Kansas - a couple of truck drivers who drove around together - who loved it. It`s popular all over the place and definitely in the gay community.
I have always said about myself I am a survivor because I am.